But she doesn’t understand me. I’m not gonna just have her try to play me I’m any form and let her slide again. She gotta EARN my forgiveness. She gotta EARN my trust. She gotta EARN my life. That’s like giving a dog a treat for doing somethin bad and getting mad at it. It’s just gonna keep doing the same thing. I just wanted her to realize that and learn from her mistakes but she keeps doing shit that is not viable. I just wanted her to TRY like I did. But seems I’m not worth it to her. Till next time…

Wasn’t a bad day at all. But it felt like there was something missing. I think I know exactly what it was…

She’s creating this illusion that I cannot be that. & she wants to replace me with him. I know who he is. & I never STOPPED doin you right. You just cut me off at a bad time. It was my mistake for pushin the bad on us. But I want a chance. Another one. One more round to give it all I got. No other man can be what I am to you & you said it yourself. I am not to be pushed to the side, but I understand why it happened. Now, all I want is to show you that HE can’t be it for you. He may come off as amazing now, but I came off as that years ago when you met me. We been thru hell and back, & hell & back. So why not continue in this road to heaven that we COULD have. Why choose someone because they’re NEW and they seem great? 3 years vs. 3 months. & I’m STILL here cherishing you. Lemme show you… Let this good guy who’s fighting for his love to survive have his 12th round…

But if we’re gonna be in each others presence, then why is it cool to act that way towards each other. I won’t stop you from doing what you want. I just hope you feel what I’m trying to tell you. You constantly say I’m this, & I’m that. But damn baby, I’m doin everything for you! All while tryna better myself. Now, if you ain’t seein my effort, then idk what else to do. Everybody fuck up. But how many people try a second effort to bounce back?

I find out something new about all this. Now I know what you’re thinking and where you’re tryna go with this. Let’s find out what happens therest of this week. I may be forgetful but I’m not stupid or blind. As much as I care for you, you’ll always do this while I remain in your life.